Forever Friendship Ends

I don’t know if you’ll get this
I don’t know what to say..
I don’t know how to apologize
it might come out the wrong way.
That’s a chance I’m willing to take,
in hopes you can forgive me.
I never meant for it to be like this
but that’s what I can’t make you see.
You told me the wrongs,
so I could do the right.
I liked you looking out for me,
you were sort of my “light.”
I was the one you least expected,
forever I thought I would be.
Until I saw the hurt in your eyes,
now you don’t want to forgive me.
I never thought of consequences,
right now I’d rather die.
I mean to keep my promises,
I never meant to lie.
I can’t tell you why it happened,
but right now it’s killing me.
I have to admit I deserve this,
now I’m paying the fee
The punishment of not being
the best that I could be.
I just had to push my limits,
so now you’re hating me.
When I went to say sorry,
I saw anger in your eyes.
And I left with only goodbye,
but knew I was going to cry.
I stepped foot out your door,
the feeling just overwhelmed me..
I swallowed it back down,
wondering if it was meant to be.
I should have known,
never will it be the same.
I never will be able to look at you
without my eyes full of my shame.
You will look at me knowing,
I did the worst.. I lied.
You will never trust me like before,
but only I can say I tried.
Ten years we’ve been friends,
I’ve gone and made that forever friendship end.
In shorter words I can easily say:
I’m sorry, please forgive me,
Just don’t look back on the day;
don’t look back on the moment
when you felt you couldn’t rely,
On one of your best friends…
she didn’t mean to lie.
Don’t memorize that feeling,
’cause it never will be again.
She doesn’t ask much,
She just wants you to see her as a friend.
All the sorries she could cry,
all the words she could say.
All the songs she could sing
won’t make it go away.
Here are those “some days” when everything went wrong.
She will always be here in the places friends belong.
~Emily Adams