So many wrong decisions in my past,
I’m not quite sure if I could ever hope to trust my judgment anymore.
But lately I’ve been thinking, because it’s all I’ve had to do.
And in my heart I feel that I should give this child to you.
And maybe you can tell your baby when you love him so
that he’s been loved before
by someone who delivered your son
from God’s arms to my arms to yours.
And if you choose to tell him and if he wants to know
how the one who gave him life could bear to let him go,
just tell him there was sleepless nights I prayed and paced the floor
and knew the only peace I’d find is if this child was yours.
I know that you don’t have to do this, but could you kiss him once for me
the first time that he ties his shoe or falls or skins his knees?
and could you hold him twice as long when he makes his first mistake
and try to tell him that he’s not alone? Sometimes that’s all it takes.
And he’s not alone. I know how much he’ll ache
This may not be the answer for another girl like me
and I’m not on a soap box singing how we all should be.
I’m just trusting in my feelings and I’m trusting God above,
and I’m trusting that you can give this baby both his mother’s love.