Dear Dustin

I was fifteen when I got pregnant with you
I wanted you more than the world
my love for you overruled my selfishness
I knew in my heart what I had to do
I knew you deserved more than this
so I put aside my pride
my heart hurt so badly
I felt as if I had died
I sat in my room and cried
out of anger and grief and pain
if I kept you I would be so happy
but what would my son have to gain
I already knew who your family was
so I asked that they give them a call
“your baby is coming
you’ve not long to prepare
so please get ready
I’m giving my son to your care”
Then on a cold January morning
I looked in your eyes and kissed you
as tears streamed down my cheeks
I knew then how much I would miss you
I wasn’t prepared for the suffering
I didn’t know it’d be this bad
I miss you so much I can’t think straight
but your happiness makes me so glad
I love you sweet Dustin, you’re everything
I wanted everything for you
I couldn’t give you what you needed
and I knew that it was true
I’ll always be your mother
but the mother that you need…you’ve got
you now have wonderful parents
and I know that they love you a lot
I love you with every beat of my heart
with every breath in my chest
and in every day of your beautiful life
please know that I’m wishing the best.