30 Days!

Are ya freaking out Coley??!  LOL  Yup, only 30 days until Charlotte.  I’m excited, although I do admit, slightly nervous.  Nervous mostly because here I am, 30 days away from the trip, and I feel like I should have a lot more money available than I do at the moment.  Bart keeps telling me to stop worrying and that I need to go and just enjoy it and I know I need to listen to him because when it comes to stuff like this, he’s always right… it always works out and it’s never as big of a deal as I make it out to be, but still… It’s a REALLY big step for me to be doing it anyway.  I tend to have an extremely hard time just spending money that logically, I know can be put to better use toward bills and what not.  So, all in all, I just tend to have a hard time spending money on myself.  At least large sums.  Either way, I am trying to stop thinking about the money this is costing and just focus on the purpose for going.  I’m really starting to look forward to it. Coley asked me if I’d be willing to help out by leading one of the group “sessions”, which I of course agreed to do, but now I’m just trying to come up with or choose a good topic to base the discussion on.  I’m leaning toward focusing on “Moving forward” (continuing life after placing a child) just because it’s a broad enough topic that it could include almost everything else that I’d been thinking about covering.  It’s only a 45 minute session, so I just have to try really hard to narrow everything down so it’s not one long discussion on ONE particular item.  Anyway… just trying to think of what would be best for everyone that’s coming, yet something that I feel like I can contribute by personal experience.

As I said in my earlier post, Bart’s going to be in California April 12th thru 15th.  Actually, he’ll be leaving the evening of the 11th, so technically he’ll be gone from April 11th PM to April 15th PM.  So, that essentially leaves me with 5 evenings that I need to keep myself occupied, otherwise I’d probably end up sitting on my butt watching TV or just reading.  Not that there’s anything wrong with reading, but it’s usually not very good for me to sit and do nothing.  I tend to get depressed with too much silence.  LOL  So……. so far, I have a massage at 5:30 on the 12th, I have a hair appointment scheduled for Tuesday the 13th, although that’s technically early enough (1:30) that I’ll need to find something else to occupy Tuesday evening/night… then Wednesday the 14th Harmony and I are going to get pedicures and go out to dinner.  It’s a nice thought that I really won’t be spending much money with all this.  LOL  I have a gift certificate for the pedicure that Lisa gave me for my birthday (like 6 months ago) and I’ve been holding onto it, waiting for a good time to use it when I really “need” it.  Harmony gave me the gift card to Massage Envy, so really all I’ll be spending any money on is the haircut on Tuesday.  So what’s better than a few days of pampering?  A few days of FREE pampering!  Woohoo!  I’m sure I’ll have to devote at least one evening to watching girly movies too.  That’s a necessity.  So… maybe I’ll just have to have Sunday night be a do-nothing evening (maybe take a bath and read), then maybe Monday I can do the massage, Tuesday haircut and just go down and hang out with the kids, Wednesday pedicure and dinner with Harmony, then Thursday… hmmm… dunno.  I can’t remember exactly what time his flight will be returning on Thursday, so maybe it’ll be early enough that I don’t have to plan anything.  We’ll see.