Doy Hasta!

This week has just been… I search for a word and am coming up blank.  I just don’t like this week.  I’m glad it’s Friday and that I can get out of this office for a couple days to clear my mind and convince myself that having a job right now is GOOD and I should keep it that way.  It isn’t just work, just this entire week I have felt extremely “down” and frustrated with myself and with the smallest things, then to add anything else from work on top of my already tense moods just makes me want to give up, walk out and crawl in my bed and stay there for ten years.

I hope this weekend is good and that my “holiday cheer” shows up soon.  Tomorrow I’m taking Kaitlyn to see “The Princess & The Frog”, so hopefully that’ll be fun.  She’s really excited (I’ve been promising her a movie for a few months!)

I’m trying to get blankets done for Dustin and Shelton (finished with one) but I’m having the hardest time cutting the edges.  My hand is useless!  It makes me frustrated that I can’t do normal things that I used to be able to, but… there’s nothing I can do.  Harmony’s been nice and offered to help me, so I just need to get down there sometime that she can cut them for me, then I can do the ties on my own.  I’m hoping Christmas turns out good this year, even though right now it doesn’t feel like it will.  I guess this week just sucks and it makes my attitude toward everything kinda murky.

I went to the group meeting with Melissa on Tuesday and she and Kent told me that they’ve decided to place the baby for adoption with Kent’s brother and sister in law, who are unable to have children.  I cried, of course, but I really believe placing the baby is the best decision, although it isn’t my decision to make.  I’m not educated in how family adoptions really work (it’s very strange to me, but I’m willing to have an open mind) with whether the baby will know that his/her Aunt and Uncle are really their birth parents, or if they won’t know at all.  Kent mentioned that they were going to leave it up to his brother and sister in law as to whether the child will KNOW or not, so I guess we’ll see.  It upsets me to think that they wouldn’t tell him, simply because I think every child deserves to know where they really came from, but again… not my decision.

Anyway, I’m being lazy now, so I’m done for now.