That’s about it.

Posted by destiny on November 19, 2009 in 2009 Entries |

I’ve been kinda lazy when it comes to writing here lately, although I’ve had PLENTY of time!  Work has been crazy slow the past few months.  Well, really just every other week.  Because of the way Semi-Monthly payrolls have been falling on my regular busy week for Bi-Weekly’s, I’ve ended up having on insanely busy week, then the next is totally dead.  I’ve had a lot of people say “that would be so nice” or comments about getting paid to do nothing, etc.  Well no, it’s not nice.  It drives me insane and I’ve been in almost a non-stop bad mood for the past month 1/2 LOL!  It just makes me grumpy when I have nothing to do and sit here literally doing NOTHING but trying to kill the time by playing on Facebook or whatever, which after a while gets annoying in itself because there’s really nothing entertaining.  If I didn’t feel guilty about it because of co-workers, I’d probably leave early every day of the slow week or literally not work at all.  I absolutely hate it.  So the way it’s been falling on top of the few clients we’ve lost because of the economy… well, it’s just been frustrating.  Anyway, it should kinda go back to normal after December, so I’m trying to be optimistic.  I’m actually looking FORWARD to 4th Quarter and processing W-2’s.  I miss the crazy hectic “stress of having tons of work” feeling.

It’s amazing how fast this year is going by… I can’t believe November is already half gone and before we know it, Christmas will be here.  “2010” seems just the strangest thing to me.  I remember entering “2000”, which of course was crazy for probably EVERYONE… but for some reason, 2010 seems like… I dunno… almost “futuristic”?  LOL  I don’t know how to describe it, but it’ll just seem weird.

So, I actually wrote the two above paragraphs over two days ago and never ended up having time to finish it, which is funny since I said how slow work has been, etc. and then in the middle of writing, I got slammed.  It’s a good thing though… one of my clients who left us to go to *another payroll company* (probably shouldn’t specify their name :P) ended up calling us this week and saying he wanted to come back.  He said “this has been hell”.  It was kinda nice, because he told me he had a whole new perspective of what I actually do and that he “didn’t know how good he had it ’til he left us”.  It was kind of nice to hear for once, just someone acknowledging that my job maybe isn’t as easy as it appears to be.  I’m glad to have him back, honestly, because he was one of my favorite clients, but it’ll take quite a bit of work to get him back to smoothly functioning since we’re about two months behind now.  Gotta catch up on those payrolls we missed for tax purposes, etc. and hopefully it’s running smoothly before I have to run W-2’s at the end of December.  :)

Well, I’m exhausted.  Physically, emotionally, inside and out… I feel exhausted.  It’s so much that sometimes I feel like I can’t lift my own body enough to walk, or like I could fall asleep at any given time if I wasn’t focusing on staying awake.  I have not been sleeping well the past few weeks and although it might not seem like being woken up 6, 7, 8, 9, maybe 10 times per night would be that harsh on your system… it is.  Every time I’m woken up, it takes me at least 15 minutes to fall back asleep, often times I’m woken up again right as I hit that tiny little point between awake and asleep.  Not quite awake and not QUITE asleep… and I’m woken up again.  That’s the most frustrating feeling of all.  Last night that happened about 4 times (being “woken” back up before I was even back asleep) and that’s AFTER being woken up at least 5 times before that, where I was fortunate enough to actually get back to sleep for a while before I woke up again.  I don’t know what time it was, because I didn’t look or even grab my phone for my alarm, I just jumped out of bed, grabbed my blanket, closed our bedroom door and went downstairs to the couch.  Sleeping on the couch is ok for a weekend nap, but my body doesn’t handle really trying to sleep on the couch very well.  It’s not quite long enough for me to completely stretch out and it’s too squishy for me to really get comfortable.  I think I ended up on the livingroom floor at least three times, then back on the couch, then into the kitchen for a drink of water at least three times, bathroom twice, back to the couch… I literally have no idea how much sleep I got last night, but today, I feel like “living dead”.  What a strange saying… “living dead”.  Well I totally get what it’s meant to portray now… because if you looked at me, you’d understand too.  I’m living.  I’m breathing and alive, but I don’t look or feel it.  I don’t know how much longer this will go on before I try to find the strongest sleeping pill and ear plugs that will just make me 100% unconscious at night.  I’ve been worried about trying sleeping pills thus far because every time I’ve taken any in the past, I always feel like I have a hangover the next morning.  I am going to go buy some ear plugs today though and we’ll see how that works out tonight.

I think I had more I wanted to write, but I’m kinda drawing a blank right now.  Maybe I’ll write later.

1 Comment

  • Marilee says:

    I feel the same way…I want to know where this year has gone. I seriously feel like it was just yesterday that I was leaving the hospital without Landon…and that was all the way back in Feb…jeez louise.

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