The hunt

Most of you may already know that Bart and I are house hunting.  It’s been a pretty fast process… Well, we started “looking” months ago and have been talking about it for even longer, but it’s only been within the last week or so that we’re actually actively pursuing it, have a realtor, talked to the lender and know how much we can get, etc.  As fun as it is to look through dozens of houses and not find anything that you REALLY want… I’m so tired of it already and it’s only been a week.  The other day though… we went to about 5 houses in one evening and the last house of the night was a 4 bedroom, 2 bathroom house, about 2064 square feet, big yard, cute, big quiet street… we fell in love with it.  At least I did… I’m using that term.  I am IN LOVE with it.  The second we walked in, I immediately felt comfortable and like it could easily be “home”.  With all the houses we’ve looked through, I haven’t felt that for any of the others.  I’ve literally been having dreams about this house every night since and can tell you exactly where our things would go and everything.  It’s like we already live there in my mind.  I don’t know what to do, because I’m SO stuck on it for some reason and it very well might be too expensive.  I now COMPLETELY understand how people can get caught up and end up spending too much on a house they just so badly want.  We want to make an offer on it, but I’m getting discouraged because our realtor doesn’t think it’ll go for any less than the $189k it’s at right now.  We could do that and be fine, but it’s stepping just like a quarter of an inch over what we promised our limit would be… if we make that quarter of an inch exception, how far will we allow ourselves to go?

We do have a second house that we really like and I wouldn’t at all be “sad” if we got that instead of the first one… but I’d definitely be disappointed, just because it’s so much like home.  It makes me want to cry because I pretty much know that we’re not going to get it.  I know I should be optimistic, but I’m having a hard time with that right now.  I honestly feel like giving up on the whole idea of getting a house right now.  *Sigh*  Well, I guess we’ll just see how things go.